“Bring me Flowers”

This one is truly my most favorite poem. My dad moved on to the next realm, leaving us behind on planet earth almost 10 years ago. Just 2 days short of my birthday. It is still difficult to get through days without hearing his voice, he was my best friend. And so I hope to leave pieces of me (in the form of my writings) behind for my daughters for when I am gone. Now only if I can be half an amazing parent as he was to me. So reposting this one tonight, because …….I miss him!

I will be gone.

But I am available if you want.

Turning into ashes,

For I need no more space.

So, let me go, but with a smile.

For I have lived and survived.

I no longer need your attention.

But I do want some flowers!

You might not know, but hydrangeas are my favorite.

I don’t mind Chrysanthemums too.

Here you have a choice to make!

I cannot remember when I was gifted flowers.

I don’t like asking for them.

Or did I ask and never got any.

Today, I will make an exception.

Hydrangeas or Chrysanthemums,

Carnations, maybe! They remind me where I started.

Bring them, when you see me off!

I will not ask again,

I promise!

I know it is tough to look beyond.

But trust me, my darling daughters; it will get better.

You will accept that it was my time to rest.

I am gone because I was done.

I learned lessons with rejections and betrayals.

I cried, when I was let go.

I stayed, when no one else did.

I never stopped trying,

even when every bone in my body ached under pressure.

But now I am done!

I am finally free.

No, don’t be sad.

For this is a circle of life.

A cycle that won’t ever stop.

But, oh my sweet daughters,

Break every other circle that binds you done.

Allow yourself to make mistakes.

To be the person you were always meant to be.

Just don’t forget my hydrangeas.

They are a cluster of memories, I have made.

Hoping you will keep me alive in your garden of flowers.

My last wish before I go.

To be laid in the garden

To welcome you back home.

For now, I am done.

But you know, I am available if you want.